So, I start a blog but I never can follow through with it. I'm just a person that can't make commitments to things like this. My life has changed so much since my last post. It's summer time!!! And I'm happy about it! I'm "vacationing" in California with my family. If you want to call it a vacation. They drive me insane in so many ways. Like just today, they dragged me into a catholic church. I rather goudge my eyeballs out with a rusty spoon. Everything seemed so rehearsed and recited. Everyone was singing hymns. Then the preist started reciting prayers as the church joined it. What good is it to pray if it doesn't come from the heart and it's recited from memorization? They made me neal down on my knees and I thought I was going to die. There were girls dressed in white robes like it was some hippy wedding. Then everyone ate crackers and drank out of the same cup. I don't care if they wipe off the rim of the drink, they're using the same napkin, it's just spreading it around! GROSS! The best act yet was when the robed girls picked up a big cross and walked down the asle with the preist to leave the church. I thought about clapping myself. I really hope I don't have to go back next week. My aunt Stephanie, she gets EVERYTHING she wants. You should hear the way she cusses to her parents. She's a nice person, but you can't help being a rich bitch. My step-cousins Brandon and Brooke are cool. They take special medicine just to keep them calmed down and paying attention though. Someone needs to cage those two. Brooke is especially bad. She can be so annoying and is upsessed with boobs. She's nine years old and in the 3rd grade. I feel so out of place here. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE is mexican. I'm 15 minutes from the mexican border. It's kind of nice getting all the looks and attention I occasionally get, but other times I hate it. I feel stuck here. This family eats NO JUNK FOOD AT ALL! Martha, my step-grandmother has been to Burger King twice in her life. I can't take it. Stephanie thinks since she's older she can have the best of everything. Man I just want to hit everyone in the face with a frying pan! We went to my uncle Stephan's apartment in San Diego and there were 8 people in a 2 bedroom apartment. I'm taller than Stephanie and she still took the longer couch. She was wanting me to sleep on the floor but I laid there and acted asleep. I have to make my bed every morning and keep my room clean at all times. And when I go swimming I can't come into the house until i'm completly dry. What the fuck. I like it here and the fact that my Grandfather is rich makes it all the marrier. We're all heading up to Seattle, Washington on July the 15th. We're going to spend a couple weeks up there... how cool. I may stay here to go to school. Besides all that, I really like it. I miss my little puppy dog Abba though. I have so much opertunity and potential here. I have a lot to think about in the next month...